I had a mental breakdown while doing my Ph.D. at Cambridge, soon after I cut off contact with my parents, and I started seeing the university counsellor, one of the best decisions I ever made. There's something very nourishing in setting aside an hour a week to talk.

Tara Westover

An education is not so much about making a living as making a person.

I had been educated in the rhythms of the mountain, rhythms in which change was never fundamental, only cyclical. The same sun appeared each morning, swept over the valley, and dropped behind the peak. The snows that fell in winter always melted in the spring.

Tara Westover

Morning Men Change

Forgiveness isn't just the absence of anger. I think it's also the presence of self-love, when you actually begin to value yourself.

Tara Westover

Love Forgiveness Anger

We think about education as a stepping stone into a higher socio-economic class, into a better job. And it does do those things. But I don't think that's what it really is. I experienced it as getting access to different ideas and perspectives and using them to construct my own mind.

Tara Westover

Experience Education Using

I had grown up preparing for the Days of Abomination, watching for the sun to darken, for the moon to drip as if with blood.

Tara Westover

Wit Watching Watch

I didn't even have a birth certificate until I was 9 years old, which meant that, according to the state of Idaho and the federal government, I just didn't exist.

Tara Westover

Men Government Years

I had been raised in the mountains of Idaho by a father who distrusted many of the institutions that people take for granted - public education, doctors and hospitals, and the government.

Tara Westover

Trust Men Government

When you abuse someone, you limit their perspective, and you trap them in your view of them or your view of the world.

Tara Westover

Your You World

My parents would say to me, 'You can teach yourself anything better than someone else can teach it to you.' That was the whole ethos of my family.

Tara Westover

Family Yourself Yours

In families like mine, there is no crime worse than telling the truth.

Tara Westover

Truth Worse Than

I taught myself algebra and a little grammar, and somehow I scraped a high enough score on the ACT to be admitted to Brigham Young University, even though I had no formal education.

Tara Westover

Education Young You

My mother was a midwife and a herbalist, so we would go on these long walks, looking for yarrow or rosehips or whatever she needed to make her tinctures.

Tara Westover

Ya Would Wife

It's very difficult to continue to believe in yourself and that you're a good person when the people who know you best don't.

Tara Westover

Good Yourself Yours

Anyone who grows up reading the Bible for spiritual reasons, you get accustomed to reading things that are too much for you, too profound for you... Having that belief that you should read them anyway gives you a great advantage over people who only read what they think they can understand.

Tara Westover

Great Age You

You can miss someone every day and still be glad you don't have to see them.

Tara Westover

You Very Till

I felt like I needed to come to terms with the decision I'd made to let go of my family. What do you do when you want to be loyal to your family but you feel that loyalty to them is in conflict somehow with loyalty to yourself?

Tara Westover

Family Yourself Yours

During my first semester of college, I raised my hand in a class and asked the professor to define a word I didn't know. The word was holocaust, and I had to ask because, until that moment, I had never heard of it.

Tara Westover

Mom Men Word

I was 17 the first time I set foot in a classroom, but 10 years later, I would graduate from Cambridge with a Ph.D. 'Educated' is the story of how I came by my education. It is also the story of how I lost my family.

Tara Westover

Time Family Education

My loyalty to my father had increased in proportion to the miles between us.

Tara Westover

Ya Us T

All my father's stories were about our mountain, our valley, our jagged little patch of Idaho.

Tara Westover

Were Valley UN

Not knowing my birthday had never seemed strange. I knew I'd been born near the end of September, and each year I picked a day, one that didn't fall on a Sunday because it's no fun spending your birthday in church.

Tara Westover

Things that I now recognise as just part of my personality - willfulness and assertiveness, maybe even a bit of aggressiveness - these are things that I had been raised to think of as masculine features. I always thought there was probably something wrong with me.

Tara Westover

I think you can change your belief, but sometimes your behavior takes a lot longer.

Tara Westover

My family was, I think, a bit more radical than most Mormons, especially on the question of gender. So in my mind, growing up, there wasn't ever any question of what my future would look like. I would get married when I was 17 or 18. And I would be given some corner of the farm, and my husband would put a house on it, and we would have kids.

Tara Westover

If you want to live a miserable life, making your life all about other people is the way to do it.

Tara Westover

My family always spent the warm months bottling fruit for storage, which Dad said we'd need in the Days of Abomination.

Tara Westover

So, I was born and raised the youngest of seven children on this really beautiful mountain in Southern Idaho. But my dad had some radical beliefs. And because of those beliefs, we were isolated. So I was never allowed to go to school or to the doctor.

Tara Westover

There's a sense of sovereignty that comes from life on a mountain.

Tara Westover

I didn't know if I would ever reconcile with my family, and I needed to believe that I could forgive, regardless.

Tara Westover

I knew how to write like an academic, so I knew how to write academic papers and essays and things. But the things that are great for an essay are unbearable in narrative writing.

Tara Westover

I can't have my family in my life because they are abusive, and I don't have control over that. There is an abusive culture in my family, and I have to turn away from it.

Tara Westover

I think a lot of people have grown up with the idea that they can't learn things themselves. They think they need an institution to provide them with knowledge and teach them how to do things. I couldn't disagree more.

Tara Westover

I have very non-eccentric hobbies. I like to read, to have dinner with friends, and junk out on TV like everybody else.

Tara Westover

I had a mental breakdown while doing my Ph.D. at Cambridge, soon after I cut off contact with my parents, and I started seeing the university counsellor, one of the best decisions I ever made. There's something very nourishing in setting aside an hour a week to talk.

Tara Westover

I hate the the word 'disempower,' because it seems kind of cliche, but I do think that we take people's ability to self-teach away by creating this idea that that someone else has to do this for you, that you have to take a course, you have to do it in some formal way.

Tara Westover

My older brother bought textbooks and was able to teach himself enough to go to college. When I was 16, he returned and told me to do the same thing.

Tara Westover

Academic writing is such a different way of writing.

Tara Westover

Although my family attended the same church as everyone in our town, our religion was not the same. I could stand with my family or with the gentiles... but there was no foothold in between.

Tara Westover

I think for people who are inside these relationships that are really hard to leave, there is always a compelling reason to stay. It's not that they are wholly bad people.

Tara Westover

I choose not to see my parents because I value myself - and they didn't value me or my mind.

Tara Westover

At BYU, I discovered history, then historiography. I became fascinated with the study of historians and historical trends, with the idea that the way we remember the past changes and shifts with our own preoccupations.

Tara Westover

I do think we have collectively begun to conflate the institutions of education for education itself. Education is an individual's pursuit of understanding and has a lot of implications for that person, for the kind of person that they are.

Tara Westover

I used to roof hay barns for my father. It's dangerous work. Writing is much better.

Tara Westover

When I came to Cambridge, I was involved in the ward for a little bit, but I did have a very gradual process of trying to work out what I thought a good life consisted of.

Tara Westover

I didn't read much in high school, maybe because I didn't go to high school. Instead, I worked.

Tara Westover

They were a very good form for me - the way a short story has to be designed in order to function, to get in everything it needs to - and they tend to be absolutely chock-a-block full of mechanisms and tricks that writers use to do the things they need to and have the effects they need to have.

Tara Westover

Publishing a book is a very different thing than writing one.

Tara Westover

I felt like we had stories about family loyalty; I didn't feel like we had stories about what to do when you felt that loyalty to your family was in conflict with loyalty to yourself.

Tara Westover

I have books I like very much, but I don't think there are any books that everyone should read. I prefer a world in which some people read this, and others read that.

Tara Westover

I think that when memoir goes wrong, it goes wrong from too much memory, too much detail. It's about clearing all that away and just getting to the story.

Tara Westover